I'm thinking yes at this point. I have been diligently reading my pregnancy books and going to my birthing classes and granted, they have taught me a lot of useful things. However, what they do best is scare the bejesus out of me about all the stuff that could go wrong. The birthing classes in particular have me and Ryan in a state of near constant uneasiness. And the reason I know it's really getting to me is 1) I am having nightmares about the birth for the first time and 2) I am paranoid about feeling her move. I had a nightmare the other night that I gave birth to her, only she was tiny...less than a pound....green...and dead. Now that sounds just silly now, but trust me, in that dream, it was terrifying!
I got a call from the doctor's office yesterday....they finally got my bloodwork back from when they took it here at Lilly last week. They were concerned about the level of glucose, so they asked me to come in for a fasting sugar test. So for 10-12 hours last night through this morning, I couldn't eat or drink anything except water. I am STARVING! I went in and they took my blood and I mentioned to the nurse that I really hadn't felt the baby much in the past 24 hours and I was a little concerned. So they hooked me up to the fetal monitor for 30 minutes and kept track of her heartbeaet and movement. Turns out everything is fine, she is strong and healthy. I blame the birth classes for my worry! Now, hopefully, everything will come back fine with the glucose test as well. Contracting gestational diabetes is not my idea of fun!
I am at 30 weeks today, which is hard to believe. Only 10 weeks till the due date and 4 more weeks of work. Eee! We went and visited Tessa last night, she's already over 4 months old. But I love watching Ryan with her, he is just such a natural with babies. Tessa just loves him. I am not so natural at it...hope it's different when it's my baby. Ryan tells me it will be but still, I can't help but be a little nervous that this whole mom thing won't come as naturally to me as I want it to. Starting the countdown in the 30s now just reminds me how much we have left to do....gotta find a pediatrican, gotta figure out work schedules, day care or grandma care arrangements, etc, etc, etc. Okay, gonna stop now, my mind is swimming!
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Being with your baby may not feel "natural" at first, but after a week of 24x7, you'll feel a whole lot different!
Thanks for visiting with us and yes Ryan is the 'baby whisperer'. Hey he even calmed her down when I couldn't do it..and I'm the mommy! :)
Don't worry it's the most natural thing in the world. And don't worry about all the details coming up...don't forget you have 4 wks at home to plan and nest. And if you don't have something to do you'll drive yourself nutty sitting at home!!
I have a great book about labor you should read. It's mostly geared toward natural childbirth but even if you want drugs it talks about getting into the right mindframe for birth, preparing yourself for your the experience, etc. Absolutely relied on it to keep my cool.
Let me know if you want to borrow!
Sorry for the long post! :)
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